Sadness and Anger
I'm experiencing sadness and anger. I suppose if I felt nothing for you I wouldn't be experiencing any feelings at all. I'm disappointed at the outcome of our date. I has hoping for more. More of what? I don't know, but I do know that I feel unsatisfied. I was hoping there would maybe be one of those magical moments where time stands still and we look into each others eyes and kiss and there's electrical sparks. Maybe that's not a realistic expectation? Who the fuck even knows what realistic expectations are anymore. Right now I feel like I shouldn't even bother pursuing any kind of romantic attachment because I'm not secure enough in my ability to process emotions in a healthy non judgemental way. I fucking give up.