It's Over
I've made the decision to cut the person you've become out of my life. I have no use for this relationship anymore. It only causes me pain and distress. I keep having panic attacks because of it. My animal brain is telling me that holding on to you is dangerous and that I need to run. My better judgment has told me to run for a long time now. I'm going to listen to myself and stop fighting and hoping that some day the person you were will come back to life. Your addiction has killed that person. I hope that you can climb out of this pit, but I'm not longer willing to come visit you in it. I'm moving on with my life. I have good things going on. I have my friends, my family, my art, my music, my film career and a companion who loves me and treats me the way I deserve to be treated. I deserve happiness and attempting to maintain a relationship with you makes me extremely unhappy. It’s why I'm done. This nighmareish chapter with you is finally over. Jenny