I'm Angry
I have no malice. I have no ill will towards you. I am hurt and right now I am angry. I am angry that despite my years of trying to support you through your struggles with alcoholism, we're still in the same place repeating the same cycle over and over again. I take responsibility for enabling you. I take responsibility for my role in a co-dependent relationship. I don't blame you, but I am angry and I am damaged...badly. I wish you'd get your shit together and by that I mean get some self esteem and start practicing self care. If you started to do that, your life would drastically improve. We're not talking about me right now so don't start pointing the finger back at me and telling me that I need to do the same thing. You need to focus on you, not me. What I do should be of no consequence to you. I appreciate that you have cared for me when I've had struggles with my health, but you've cared for me in lieu of caring for yourself and that has to stop. I...